Thursday, June 12, 2014

A Slave...

... without a master is like a feather blowing in the wind

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Wow.. Who knew

Found this article... If there were check boxes next to these items I would have a mail against each point

http://www.getesteem.com/lse-symptoms/cognitive.html

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

I really need to stop.

I really really need to stop.

Driving myself crazy. I'm just driving myself crazy

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Dignitas

Oh how I wish.

General weariness of life

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Great expectations

I really must learn to manage my expectations. 

It's funny how I don't even realize I even have them until something happens, then I always end up feeling rotten. I can't seem to learn that lesson.

Monday, March 17, 2014

It's easy to give advice and say things like pull yourself together.

Pull yourself together...

So much easier said than done.  The funny part being that the even the ones saying it don't know how such a feat is to be achieved, so how am I to know.

Pull yourself together... You cannot go on like this.
.

Pull yourself together...

I want to, I'm trying, I don't completely know how
I know, don't you think I don't know that

Friday, February 28, 2014

Acceptance

Things... Bonds forged out of desperation are not real

Release them

Excise

There are more bad days than good days.

Day before was a good day, yesterday was a bad day.. Today feels even worse.

I went to sleep thinking "today is a bad day, tomorrow shall be better"

I woke up thinking "yesterday was a bad day, today will be better"... So far as I said it's worse.

There is a ball of sadness and pain locked within me. I fantasise about being able to cut myself open and remove it. I can feel exactly where the pain is so why can't it be as simple as cutting it away?

Tuesday, I wish I had more days like Tuesday. I felt in control of myself  I felt stronger. Everyday should be Tuesday.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Drinking so much these days... And I'm so bad at it.

However, drinking at home does have its advantages... The bed is not a far stumble

Tuesday, February 25, 2014