Imagine that's all that you could hear, an uninterrupted supply of nothing but white noise. How would you react? How would that make you feel?
For the past two weeks that is all that I have been hearing in my head. I can't read, I can't think, forget about sitting down and actually following a show on television, nothing sticks. I have been looking at your updates, looking at them mind you, I can't get past the first sentence or if I do its because your post was short and sweet and it took me an hour to of dedicated concentration to read. As such my work is suffering and sitting still for any period of time is next to impossible.
I am not depressed but at the same time I certainly am not happy. Actually it may be more accurate to say that I am severely lacking in all emotion right now, I'm sure its a concentration problem. My mind cannot settle on one emotion long enough to say that its actually been having one. I don't even have the wherewithal to sustain the slightest bit of annoyance with stupid drivers...Oh Gawd is this complacence?
So yes this is the real reason why the blog has been covered with memes and other little mindless blurbs. Well not quite so mindless because some of these memes have been helpful, there is a certain amount of thinking involved when trying to find x amount of interesting things to put down about yourself, which reminds me of the emotional blackmail on facebook to do that damned 25 things meme..."so we as a family could get to know each other better". Cuz, I love you but really?
There is so much going on with me right now, too much. I have quite fond memories of a time when my life was a drama free zone, in fact wasn't that just last August?
That noise, that unmistakeable droning in my head is actually the sound of me being overwhelmed. There are decisions to make and I am unable to do so.
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4 comments:
Oh, my girl. I know that white noise thing. I do. Coffee calms it for me. Smoking, when I used to smoke, did it for me. Ritalin does good, too, but that requires a prescription. And then - there's always cocaine. But that's not the best solution, either.
There is another solution, though. Exercise. I know, I know, I know. That's what everybody says. But it's true. 20 minutes of vigorous physical exercise will set you straight. Try it. Power walk. Don't just walk. Power walk. Simplest form of exercise there is. You will be amazed at how you feel.
Hang in there GB, hang in there. Nothing lasts forever. You'll get through this time and something else will be possible. :)
Oh Trini... girl, that sucks! I'm so sorry your head is there at the moment. I've had my concentration blow on me and it really is a bizarre & frustrating world to be in...
I read a lot of Far Side comics at the time - all I could manage. Laughter rarely hurts too much 'eh.
The last thing you want to do might the first thing that might work. So laugh and run for 20 minutes. Or, you can do the dishes :) Hope the noise goes soon.
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